For a whole year I forgot to blog. Or maybe I just didn't want to voice out any of my thoughts last year. But now looking back at the year that has passed, I have to say GOD NEVER FAILS TO AMAZE ME.
At the start of 2010 I struggled with having my father remarry and my brother's medical needs. But now, I am grateful for how my Tita (stepmom) takes good care of dad and my brother is by God's grace overcoming everyday.
To say that God has helped me is an understatement. I realized this when my cousin told me, "You've gone through so much changes, ano?" His statement floated through a blank space in my mind for a few seconds before it finally hit me. He's right! All the while it felt like I was just sloshing through the pain and problems. Yet all the while the real thing was the Truth was upholding me, breathing His life into me, changing me inside as I went through all that.
As we began the fasting and praying seven days ago, my spirit and soul was humbled. All I could think of was there's so much that God wants to reveal about who HE IS, HIS VISION for us and HIS PURPOSE -- but my puny, finite mind cannot grasp it all. I cry at this. I ask for mercy and grace. How I need Him.
There's more to come this 2011: Blessings - that we may bless others; Trials - to refine us and make our faith stronger. God grant me that humble spirit to accept His will... for His own glory.
